• Day 351: Self-Deprivation Sucks

    Date: 2011.02.04 | Category: Uncategorized | Tags:

    Guess what I’m eating right now?

    A container of plain yogurt to which I’ve added some Stevia, an all-natural sweetener.

    Guess what I wish I was eating?

    Yes – on February 1st I announced I was going totally sugar-free for my last month of a Year Without Candy.

    What a suck-ass plan. All I can say is — you have no idea how much sugar must be added to “normal” foods until you embark on a totally no-sugar plan.

    Cravings, except for ones that lasted just a few seconds, have pretty much evaporated as this year has worn on.   However, as soon as the totally sugar-free hammer came down Feb. 1st, all I wanted was SUGAR!

    Today, after working hard, I went for a run along the Promenade des Anglais.  I wanted one thing:  Haagen Dazs chocolate chip cookie dough. Haagen Dazs is hard to score in these parts but there is a gas station with an American-style mini mart along the Promenade des Anglais.

    If it weren’t for this ridic blog, which keeps me honest, I would have thrown in the towel on this year and this month.  I would have gone into the little market and gone right to the back where they keep a tiny, magical freezer stuffed with pints of Haagen Dazs.

    I have a great bottle of wine at my place and had a glass tonight.  Unfortunately, it just makes me feel sleepy and sort of off my game.  It doesn’t make me feel how wine should feel – relaxed and adult and sophisticated.

    Where’s my chocolate chip cookie dough?

    I want some. I want it now.